It's been a good long time since my last journal update. Over a year. Maybe I can make it a holiday or something.
Bah.

I have things I need to upload here, scan in, draw, finish coloring... etc. Things just keep piling up and up, and not just here. I have so much work to do but almost no want to do them.

It's beginning to effect my mood and mind, I think. I really need a job at this point. It's killing me that I can't find one, and I have a freaking degree. Seriously, it's been over a year since I started looking. What the hell?

I have had several people call back and I've completed several applications during this time. Still. Nothing.

Either I'm not trying hard enough or I need to go back to school and get more degrees. And THAT is something I really wish I wouldn't have to do just yet. I was seriously hoping that I would have some kind of income right now and I would be out of my home town, but no. Noooooooooo.

I've resorted to playing games I never wanted to play. Like Okami. It's OK fun, but when you get into the later challenges it's just one arduous unbalanced task after another. Hatred courses through my veins when I think about the people who design games like this.
... probably one of the little reasons I would like to design games in the first place is just to get some revenge for this. I'm sure there are a lot of people with the same idea, which might explain some things.

Bah.

I'm thinking I need to do some Grandia fan art seeing as how I'm a huge fan and all that. I tried a bit ago, but... well, apparently I need more practice before I can do any justice to it. It's one of those things where I feel like it would be an insult to go halfway.

Hopefully I can pull myself together in time to save myself from further boredom.